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A friend shared this with me today...

"There are really two kinds of submissives in the world: those who believe they don't deserve any better…and those who believe they don't deserve any less." ~author unknown
]]> MY LOVE:, Our Ruinous Love http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090106-200750 ORL Inc. Wed, 07 Jan 2009 03:07:50 GMT http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/comments.php?y=09&m=01&entry=entry090106-200750 http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090106-143116

WELCOME TO OUR RUINOUS BLOG!

First things first - if you’re just here to check out some sample clips from our movies, or maybe purchase one of our DVDs, go ahead and click the “Videos” button on the right side of the screen, in the Links box. That’ll take you where you need to go.

This blog started in 2006, on Alt.com. During our time there we told anyone who’d listen about our sex life, our deviant desires, our amazing love story, our failures and disappointments, and our good days along the way. I shared my music and poetry and MY LOVE talked about new, exciting personal discoveries. We were both honest and humble, and I think those are just a couple of good reasons why we had so many "watchers" - so many fans. We also told you, in unabashed, vulgar detail about our sexual activities - some of which went to the extreme. Many of you liked what you read and eagerly came back for more. Some of you were probably shocked - even appalled by what you read - but you came back anyways. To see if we would top ourselves or go too far... to see if we were real... to see...

We must say: "Welcome Back" to all of you who were around during that time. You gave us confidence, constructive feedback, and a much-needed audience. What you will find here, now, is the same quality - the same honesty - of writing that you did before. Only now, we don't have to worry about being CENSORED. Don’t be shy – leave comments if you’d like. We certainly appreciate them. Just don’t leave them on this particular post, because it gets deleted and reposted every time I put up a new one.

To those of you who are new: There is so much to read - so much ground to cover. I've tried to put more than two years of living into categories, so that if you find yourself interested in reading about something specific, you can isolate those posts. Just check out the Categories at the right, down below the Calendar. You can read about:

Our “love” story is intense, and certainly unique. There's drama, there's obsession, and there's even a divorce in there.

Both the “SEX” and “Depravity” categories will leave you sweaty and aroused, while the posts by “MY LOVE:” will leave you thinking.

There's plenty to read about my time working in “Porn Shops”, “Rants” about nothing in particular, and even some “Funny Stuff” to lighten the mood and keep you entertained.

You'll be able to read about the crazy life we lead as porn producers on “ORL inc.” and marvel at the incredible work we've done producing downloadable perversion on “Clips4Sale”. You’ll also get up-to-date information on our new venture; “HelpMeViolateHer”.

You’ll read original works of “Poetry/Music” and daily musings and reports “outside”.

All of it is honest, and real, and we're just beginning this adventure.

So much to read - you better get started...

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cindi zyre

Before we shoot HelpMeViolateHer #3, we have to do #2. On January 14th, we will be going to Valhalla House, in Portland, and shooting with cindi zyre. She is a submissive who has expressed interest in seeing what it’s like to be the sadist for a couple of hours. Apparently she is very nasty, and derives a different kind of pleasure from hurting someone, then from receiving it. That makes sense.

This is what “help me violate her” is about. I don’t really want to do too much performing in these movies, I just want to run the cameras and move things along. Finding someone else with a deviant mind, who wants to hurt MY PROPERTY, is very exciting. Now I can do more witnessing and less worrying about whether or not the cameras are at the right angle, or even recording at all. This means the footage should be of a higher quality, and hopefully I’ll get to capture all the action. You have no idea how much gets lost because I thought I pushed the record button, but didn’t. Or, we move out of camera view without even knowing it.

I knew nothing about cindi until just recently. I was under the impression that she was dominant, but I found out that is her professional persona. Knowing this made things a bit easier for me. I’ve been around “Doms” who would have felt their dominance threatened if I gave a command/order or even instruction, during a scene/video shoot. Some people take that shit way too seriously. I am far too at ease, and easygoing, to let something like that bother me. But perhaps by not “staying in character” something is lost. Maybe I don’t seem in control if I don’t act like an alpha male the entire time, but I just don’t care. Appearances are only that… appearances. Reality is always quite another thing.

We are looking forward to this shoot just as much as the gang bang, but for vastly different reasons. I am looking forward to meeting cindi and watching her enjoy herself. We'll have more details about this movie, once it's happened, so keep reading...

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When I last saw my mother, things weren’t going too well for me. I was still on probation, and had decided to leave the state without permission. At the time, I was living with her in Washington. My decision to move to Oregon was based on… what I can’t exactly remember. I probably just hated Spokane, and wanted to get back to the place I considered home - Portland. By the time I left, there was a warrant out for my arrest, and I guess several officers showed up at my mother’s house looking for me. According to her, they were wearing gear like they expected heavy resistance. That’s just not me.

My mother is now 65 years old. She finally has a cell phone but still doesn’t use the computer. It is a daunting task for her to take on, just learning how to operate one. My mother is kind of a proud lady, so asking for help means swallowing her pride. That’s not something I really understand. I’m not the kind of guy who’ll drive around lost, refusing to ask directions. I want to know how to get back on track so that I can stop feeling frustrated. My mother hates having to ask family members for help, but I remember a time when I had to give the lady both blowjob and anal sex advice, over the phone.

It was summer, and I don’t know how old I was. Maybe mid-twenties. By then, I’d been working in enough adult establishments that my mother was comfortable asking me the occasional question. This is the woman who accidentally opened a manila envelope she thought contained my grades from high school, but actually contained information about A.I.D.S. that I’d requested over the phone. She got the wrong idea – I just wanted to know about the disease – and thought I might be gay. Soon after that, we learned that it was easy to talk about sex, between the two of us. She never had to give me THE talk, or really answer any questions when I was growing up. I learned from school, classmates, and late-night HBO. We never had a problem talking about anything when I was younger, and that included the topic of sex. So, as an adult, when my mother asked me for advice on giving her new husband oral sex, I did not hesitate to give it and she didn’t hesitate to ask. Later in the conversation, anal sex came up and I gave her advice based on my experiences in the adult business and on my personal experiences with girlfriends. We didn’t giggle or talk about how awkward it should feel, we just had the conversation and then moved on to other topics, as you normally would. Having that kind of open, honest communication with a parent was something I knew most people didn’t have, so I valued it.

I’m happy to be talking to my mother again. It’ll be interesting, filling her in on what’s been happening in my life over the last couple of years. Our conversation was brief because she has to worry about her minutes, on her cell phone. Nights and weekends might be free for most people, but this is a woman who has gone to bed by 7pm for as long as I’ve known and lived with her – and that’s a long time. She’s been a waitress pretty much all her life, so getting up early to go to work has become an ingrained habit. I am sure that, when she retires at the end of the year, it will take her quite some time to be able to really sleep in. She woke and went to work early so that she could get home in time to have at least a semblance of a relationship with me. Our family did not include my father at a very early age. So early I simply cannot remember. I was forever visiting him during holidays and summer vacations. My mother did her best to pay the bills and still be a part of my life. It was not easy for her, of this I am certain…]]> Our Ruinous Love http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090106-141533 ORL Inc. Tue, 06 Jan 2009 21:15:33 GMT http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/comments.php?y=09&m=01&entry=entry090106-141533 http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090106-140741
Those clips, that continue to sell, are pure profit. They became pure profit long ago, and every month they give a repeat performance. I am happy with these results, but far from content. The point, still, is to stop sharing the profit (40% of my sales to C4S) and start keeping all the money. However the economy, as bad as it is, will not allow that just yet. So, we opened the three studios on FetishVideos with the hope of making our base pay for the month close to double what it has been. Starting this month, I think that might begin happening.

Sales were really slow on FetishVideos, but they’ve begun to pick up. Hopefully we’ll wind up on their front page, as a Featured Store, so that some more traffic can come our way. What we have to offer is real, and it is quality. The people who run the site say they have a way of directing specific traffic to the right place, so I’m excited to see if it really works. Clips4Sale is the oldest and the biggest, but they don’t do a whole lot except exist at this point. They really don’t need to.

So, we have the potential sales from Video Mayhem, in New York. We also have the DVD sales from both of our sites. If we get any custom video orders, or someone commissions a HelpMeViolateHer video, we’ll be doing damn good, which is the plan for this year. It’s already starting out fantastic. Sales are where they belong and they’re only going to get better.

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Yesterday was another Happy Butthole Day!

After the incredible ass fucking that MY CUNT received during New Year’s Eve, and on through into the next day, she was kind of missing it. I was completely surprised when I stepped into the office to find the “Happy Butthole Day!!!” sign resting on my keyboard. I had not noticed the bathroom door closed for any lengthy period of time, which is usually what happens when she needs privacy to get herself clean for me. When I see the door to the bathroom we shower in is closed, I know what’s going on behind it and I get very excited. We both use a bathroom that is on the opposite side of the house, for emptying our bowels, but she uses our regular bathroom to clean them. Enough of that talk…

It was a busy day yesterday. Lots of sales calls for MY LOVE and a great deal of blogging, editing, and marketing for me. When we finally got a moment, it was mid-day, and she wanted to “take a nap”. Of course I agreed, and about ten minutes after she lay down I walked in and removed the covers from the bed. MY MEAT wore a cute babydoll dress and a pair of thong panties that made her ass look fantastic. Instead of crawling on the bed to fuck her I pulled her sideways until her asshole was even with my now stiff prick. Standing at the side of the bed I could comfortably slide into her and manipulate her legs so that I was getting deep inside. I fucked her slowly, then eventually picked up the pace. Her breathing did change a bit – it got more rapid when I started to really pound her – and I bet she was having a hard time maintaining the appearance of a sleeping/passed out individual. She did a phenomenal job though, and she lasted so long that her hole started to stretch out a bit. I knew just what to do about that.

I must first quickly mention that I’d been wearing a condom the whole time. There are two reasons for this: 1) Her hole is often still wet from the enema and other natural “fluids” in there, and I don’t really like that all over my cock. 2) I am determined to practice fucking with a condom so that I can use other pieces of meat when the opportunity arises, instead of being so damned incapacitated by them. When MY CUNT’s asshole started to get loose, I pulled out and stripped off the condom I was wearing. Wiping off my prick and her asshole, I went into another room and got a set of six silicone anal beads. Pushing four of them into her asshole, I put on another condom and managed to get my cock in her asshole too. Believe it or not, she did not “wake up”, or take in so much as a sharp breathe. I’ll admit, I didn’t exactly shove my cock in her asshole, I eased it in, but it really wasn’t all that necessary. I had her hole pretty stretched out and used up.

As before, I started out slow but quickly picked up the pace. Pulling her body further toward the edge of the bed, I almost had it falling off, which meant her weight was pushing back against me. When I thrust my cock forward, and deep up into her, her body did not bounce away like it normally would. The dead weight of her kept her in place. I enjoying myself, repositioning her several times but always remaining next to the bed. When I dumped my load in the condom I had plans to squeeze out the contents on MY NASTY BITCH but she came out of her deep sleep too soon. When I told her of my disappointment, and what I’d planned to do, she laughed and told me it was a good thing I hadn’t succeeded. She was going to be seeing a client just a short time later…

We used the hot tub later in the evening, and when we got out it was late. Not wanting to waste a clean butthole, I told MY SLUT to bend over in the office while I watched the rape compilation movie I have been working on. She was blindfolded, and not allowed to watch. Her ass was used, and once again it grew loose. Placing a expandable dildo into her pussy, I began to pump air into it while fucking her ass. It eventually got to the size of a baseball and that’s when her muscles began to violently contract, and pushed it out of her pussy. It went back in but this happened a couple more times so I went into the other room and got a set of two silicone anal beads. These went into her pussy and stayed there while I went back to using her asshole. I watched one woman after another get sexually assaulted and abused and enjoyed the hole in front of me. The movie is now 50+ minutes long and I think I lasted for 30 of them. This load was dumped inside of her, and then it was time to get our asses to bed.

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In mid-November of last year, we received a message from the wonderful folks at MauiKink.com. Based in – you guessed it, Maui – they are a company that makes implements like single-tails and paddles, leather suspension cuffs, bondage equipment in general, unique glass items, and custom furniture. It’s a smaller business, but it’s not all the same old stuff you see on the rest of the sites out there. They wrote to tell us that a friend had recommended they check out our blog, and they were happy they had done so. It’s always nice to hear that we’ve made one more fan, but I felt something more could be accomplished, than just saying “Thank you – keep reading”. I wrote back and told the folks at MauiKink that MY LOVE and I had just been talking about finding a company that made “toys and equipment”, to do some cross-promotional stuff. They were instantly excited at the prospect.

Of course, the holidays keep people busy and distracted. Add to this the fact that our messages often wind up in people’s Spam folders, and you can understand why we are just now getting back in contact with MauiKink, to discuss the details regarding this whole situation. The general plan is: They will send us a few implements that we would like to try out, and we will use those implements in two of our movies/clips to promote their business. We won’t refer to MauiKink outright in our clips, but there will be information there so people know where the implements came from. We’ve also agreed to make mini-commercials, or film testimonials, and upload them to NocturneVideo, where we have quite a little following. If they are satisfied with what we do, we hope to get them to make some custom furniture for us. It’s expensive for them, so we’re going to have to make it worth it, but I think that’ll be easy. For our effort – promoting their site, putting up text and logos, blogging about them, making the commercials, using their products in our movies – we get to keep the stuff they send us, and they will do a little cross-promoting themselves. Every time we put up a commercial for them, they are going to draw attention to it, of course, which also winds up drawing attention to us. And around it goes…



So, this is our first post about MauiKink, but rest assured there will be others. MY LOVE has expressed interest in a Victorian Rug Beater, a Spanker/Clapper with spikes on it, and some Leather Suspension Cuffs. I am asking their glass blower to fashion a small glass fist on a handle, so that I can fist MY WHORE. We’re looking forward to testing out their products and telling everyone that’ll listen about them. Stay tuned…

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Would you like to be a part of our third HelpMeViolateHer movie? We are hosting an anal gang bang in Portland this upcoming January 16th, from roughly 7 – 9pm. Men and women who would like to attend, and maybe get in on the action, should visit www.helpmeviolateher.com for more information. When you get there, click the “Violate Her” button at the bottom of the screen, and then look for “Option C: Hosted Event/Public Release”. We’re hoping our first foray will be a smashing success, so that we can set the precedent for all that come after.

This will be a typical gang bang with one exception – the cameras. MY LOVE will be on her hands and knees, perhaps bound but definitely blindfolded, with her asshole available to the party/event-goers. They will take turns fucking her ass, and I am going to insist that they shoot their load all over MY MEAT and then wipe their cock off in her hair. If four men show, it’ll be a four-man gang bang – if twenty show, we’ll be having a fucking good time!

Every participant is going to be required to wear a condom if they attempt to ass fuck MY CUNT. Every participant will be required to pay a $50 entry fee and to sign the appropriate release forms. This is a professional video shoot, not a party, and the atmosphere will reflect that. We can have a good time, and we will, but everyone will act like sane, respectful adults. The footage that I capture will be used to create HelpMeViolateHer #3. Every person that enters the door, whether they decide to participate or not, will be sent a copy of the movie once it is completed. Nobody is guaranteed a shot at her asshole – she’s not a prostitute and that’s not how we work or act – but men that are clean, disease-free, sane, polite, and can fuck with a condom on in front of a bunch of other men have a damn, DAMN good chance. If any women would like to come along to watch or participate, we’d be delighted to welcome you to our event. The more the merrier!

When you go to the site, you’ll see that we have a few stipulations you must accept and comply to, before you can attend one of our events. The signing of a model release form is of the utmost importance, so if you’re not willing to do that, perhaps you can contact us about doing something for you privately. This movie is going to be seen by many, many people. We don’t insist that every participant show his/her face though. Sometimes we will incorporate masks into an event so that people who want to remain anonymous can do so, and there’s always the simple act of keeping the camera aimed well below the neck. Once I begin editing, those who need privacy will get it. That’s not difficult to guarantee.

If you go to the site, read the stipulations for Option C:, and think you’d like to attend, please write to us: helpmeviolateher@yahoo.com Treat this like a professional video shoot, because that’s what it is. We are doing this for our business, and for profit. We are also doing this for the pure enjoyment of it, but that doesn’t mean we aren’t taking it seriously. You should also. Please don’t waste our time, if you really don’t think you’ll be able to show up, or have the courage to. When you contact us be honest and maybe there’ll be an event in the future that fits who you are and what you want to experience better. Sometimes honesty from a customer leads to new and different experiences, and we certainly enjoy that. Everyone involved should be having a good time.

We are hoping for many responses and we are prepared. So bring them on!

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***I was once in a 24/7 M/s relationship. There were very detailed rules that affected every area of my life, which were adhered to. As a newbie, at the time, I found this structure comforting and welcome but at times stifling. One of the challenges was that my M at the time could not step out of his role to also be my friend and lover. He needed to be the alpha all the time. Regardless, that was my indoctrination into BDSM and still affects the way I feel about some things such as collars – wearing one is as much an honor and privilege for me as it is to the person being allowed to put it on me, and it is a milestone in the relationship.

K and I have structure, but it is not defined nor categorized by BDSM standards or rules. We do not subscribe to SSC (safe sane & consensual) nor RACK (risk aware consensual kink). He is my Owner, not my Master. He is my best friend, my lover, my business partner. He calls me on my shit and encourages me to grow and develop. There are things I am expected to do on a daily basis. There are things that come up due to circumstances. There are spur of the moment decisions made that I comply to. Our structure is fluid, and malleable. At first I craved a much more detailed “regimen” but have found the constantly evolving structure more realistic as we are not trying to make established sets of rules fit into our life. We don’t even call it a “lifestyle,” it is just who we are and how we live. The elements fit when they fit. As a result we do not “play,” we are living the way we want to, each minute, each day.***]]> love, MY LOVE:, Our Ruinous Love http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090104-134453 ORL Inc. Sun, 04 Jan 2009 20:44:53 GMT http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/comments.php?y=09&m=01&entry=entry090104-134453 http://www.ruinouslove.com/blog/index.php?entry=entry090104-125756
***First of all I just want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year!!!! Ours has started out the way it should for two sick sex fiends, and I hope yours was just as exciting.

We are making lots of plans to build our business more this year, and so far we are off to a good start! Check this tentative schedule out:

Mid-January we have two shoots planned in Portland, one with Cindi of Valhalla House and the other for our new site, helpmeviolateher.com. The ladder will be an anal gang bang that quite a few people are showing interest in, to my delight.

At the end of January we will be headed to LA to work with West Coast Gang Bangs for a shoot.

Just before or after that we may be headed to Colorado Springs to work with two VERY talented individuals (will let you know when we have that firmed up). That's Claire Bondage.

Mid-February we will be headed to Seattle for two days of shooting with House of Gord and Naked Gord, then a day of shooting with the beautiful and sadistic Lady Lydia McLane.

SO EXCITED!!!***

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